look it!

over there ----> some goodness before i start with the sadness

personwhosnameimustnevermention's grandpa died last night. i think the funeral may be tomorrow or monday. its all pretty sad. im really not looking forward to telling the boys, especially x.
last christmas x wouldnt even go near him because he thought he would die. and then he started crying because he as thinking about everybody else dying. i dont know that i can handle that again.

my mums 50th birthday was also the anniversary of my nannas death. you can read a...something...that i wrote about her here.

im really not good with words. im not good with them when they matter the most