Tuesday, December 31, 2002

alright people. i'm almost up to the thousand mark and i need your help. sure, i could just reload the page again and again, but my elation would be short lived and hollow. just to make sure it isnt me getting it to one thousand, i need everyone who visits here to comment or tag each time. just so there's proof.

it's new years eve today. what's everyone doing tonight? at our house we're having a few people over and we're going to watch lord of the rings and play trivial pursuit. yep, we're par-tay animals here :)

Sunday, December 29, 2002


he he he


EOMER: Hi! Okay, stop me if you've heard this one. An elf, a man, and a dwarf walk into the Riddermark...

LEGOLAS: Ooh! And the elf shoots arrows through this git who rides up on a horse. Yeah, I HAVE heard it! That's one of my favorites.

ARAGORN: Down, Legolas. Hey, have you folks seen a couple little guys, about this high..?

EOMER: Nope. Oh! Unless they were in that pile of corpses we burned.

ARAGORN: Thank you; that's...useful...

EOMER: Yeah; my bad. Here, have some horses

Friday, December 27, 2002

i really need to wee
in her past there's lots of people
i know them by their names
some of them rush by like water
some of them were flames
each and all new a different girl
someone i've never met

brendan benson
wot i got

well, it's over, and thank what ever deity you feel like cos i've had enough of it. my house is a huge mess despite the clean up matt and i did beforehand and i only scored $200. that will soon become a big day out ticket and a pair of shoes though :) oh well, here's the list

book voucher
2 cute stones
faerie-ality book
family - moments intimacy love and kinship book
chronicals of narnia book
moisturiser and bath stuffs
candle holders
wishing star
photo album
snow globe
cd and record signed by darren hanlon
cool 60's vacuum cleaner
glasses and a jug
coat hangers

im sure there's more but i cant remember

all in all, i got pretty good stuff. the boys got sooooooooooooo much. probably the favourite for both of them is all the bubble making stuff they both got. i like bubbles so its fun for all three of us :) matt has been painting the bedroom so he hasnt been joining in with our fun. he's also a little snarky at me cos i messaged daniel. i just asked how he'd been, and said that i hoped he had a good christmas. he wrote back and said that he was in hospital in lots of pain. i dont know whats wrong with him and im worried. i guess there'll be a few more people snarky with me now. but, im being honest, i cant do anymore than that.

we'll be picking up our new flokati rug in the next few days. cant wait. its gonna be so funky in my lounge room.

alrighty, back to cleaning. i'll stop by in the next few days. be good and have fun :)

Tuesday, December 24, 2002

tis almost christmas time

i'm actually semi excited about this christmas, im not sure why. i think maybe because this year both of the boy will be old enough to get excited about the things that they get, and not just the paper they're wrapped in. although, e and x are both still playing with the bubble wrap. but hey, i still play with bubble wrap so that's probably a habit you never grow out of.
x and i went shopping earlier and picked up a couple of last minute things. he picked out a car for e and a necklace for personwhosnameimustnevermention and i'm sure that they'll both love them. i picked out a cookies and creme icecream, and yes, i did love it, thankyou very much.

ok, well i just wanted to stop by and wish everyone who reads this a very happy tomorrow. i hope that your day is beautiful and something special and magical happens thats just for you.

merry christmas everyone

Sunday, December 22, 2002

well, we must be billionares. well, ok, thousandares. alright, really we just borrowed some money out of our homeloan, and we're spending it, and it feels good.
do you like this ottoman? why, yes, i do. well, lets buy it, ok :)
in the last 4 days we've spent nearly $2000. i cant believe how easy it is. we've bought two chesterfield armchairs, 15 litres of paint, all the door handles, an ottoman, a rug, a wardrobe, a mandarine tree, some pots, a fern, some doors, various other tools and screws and bits and pieces and lunch, twice. its so nice not to have to worry about whether we can afford something. not huge things, im not saying i want to be supremely wealthy, it'd just be nice if, like today, when the boys ask for chicken and chips for lunch, we can say ok.
we've been having a good time doing the renovations. even though we were up till 3:30 am painting on friday night, and sweltering in all the shops on saturday, we've been having a good time. elijah's room has been painted and just has to have the lights put in now. i guess that'll be done after christmas sometime, all the lights. everything will start to look really nice soon. i cant wait.
i'm kinda happy.

we opened our christmas presents from sean and holly on friday night. we were supposed to wait until christmas eve, but we couldnt make it. they are wonderful people and they give us too much :)
ive already had to wash my new t shirt because im sucha grub and spilled coke down it, but it came out, and im going to wear it on christmas day. matt is going to wear his star wars shirt, i think, but i have given him two new tops that he doesnt know about yet, so there'll be a bit of a tough decision for him.
so, again, a huge


to sean and holly :)

Wednesday, December 18, 2002

there's a cool breeze blowing in through the kitchen window and its grey outside. i checked my letterbox in my shorty pyjamas and i was actually a little chilly. i slept in till 10:30 and woke up awake, not asleep and my cup of tea was really nice.

that was until about 10 minutes ago when all of a sudden the sun came blazing through the clouds and heated my house up instantly.
stupid sun

Tuesday, December 17, 2002

fucking hot

thats all
ok, i've held off for long enough.

first theres the underwear thing, now this. its not worrying me, its only fair i guess, since holly and i will probably kiss, but its weird that it's only been brought up lately. im sure that they've both been thinking about it for a long time, i mean, we've all known each other for two years, its bound to happen. its like falling in love with your flat mate, i guess...inevitable.
so here it is, sean and matt are in love. i know they'd both be too shy to admit it, so i'll graciously tell the world for them. at the moment i think it may be a little one sided, like, sean likes matt a bit more. or maybe sean is just more at ease with his feelings and can express them a little more romantically than matt. matt just likes to talk about them going off and scouring toy and comic shops, when, as you will see, and have seen before, sean is more likely to speak at a more intimate level.
i know in the chat shown below it seems that i am teasing, but its only in a fun way. i know how true their feelings are, and its a beautiful thing.
sean : oh and the pj's smelled nice
carly : lol
sean : is that you that made them smell pretty?
carly: lmao
carly : no, it was matt
sean : lol
sean : oh dear
carly : he put his aftershave on and wore them for a bit
sean : lol
sean :no fuckin' way
sean : lmao
sean : oh shit
carly : well, it was ck one, thats the one for men and women, isnt it?
sean : first it's the underwear comment, now this
carly : i know
sean : my case is not looking good
carly : you have to wonder
sean : lol
sean : yeah, ck one is unisex
sean : so it coulda been you :-P
carly : could have
carly : but it wasnt
carly : it was matt
carly : and you said he smelled good
sean : well, matt doesn't stink so that's a good thing at least
carly : no, sorry
sean : feh
sean : heh, i just got a mental picture of him wearing those
carly : pretty
sean : lol
sean : oh jeez... this one's ending up in your blog isn't it?
carly : heh heh heh
sean : i'm sealing my fate here aren't I?
sean : you are a hard woman Carly Whittaker
* carly giggles and opens up blogger
sean : oh damn

its all there folks....you be the judge

Friday, December 13, 2002

we're just friends

over and over and over again
i say that we're just friends
forget the implications
infatuations end
if love's so easy, why is it hard
i can't imagine ever being apart
i'll come back to you
it'll be brand new
but i promise
we're just friends

over and over and over again
i try to make amends
for everything i've done wrong
my whole world just spins
make some coffee, hold me up
try and talk me out of giving up
i'll come back to you
it'll be brand new
but i promise
we're just friends


Thursday, December 12, 2002

i am worth exactly: $1,281,000.00.
i've been listening to a lot of tori amos. i read on jas's blog that she was obsessed with a particular tori song so i got out my album, i'll have to search through my tapes and find my other albums cos i only have boys for pele on cd and i've been listening to that non stop for a couple of days. i wish i could play piano. i've always wanted one of those piano-o-phones, or whatever they're called. you know, those piano flute things. but i would like to know how to play piano properly, and not just so i can play other peoples songs, but so i can make up my own stuff.

carly :matt wears both, and sometimes nothing
sean : no tighty whities to get in the way
sean: the nothing doesn't surpise me
sean : i'm actually surprised he wears them
sean : i've always figured him for a skin man lol
carly : lol, i'll let him know you've thought about his underwear :)
sean : hey now
sean : not like that
sean : not in a gay way
sean : lol
sean : you butt
carly : hehehe

and i did tell him :)

Wednesday, December 11, 2002

it made me smile that i saw a silvery grey figure dart behind one of my faerie statues outside, i dont care that no one else saw it
i actually dreamt about blogging the other night. in my dream, i'd logged on and they'd changed the format of the posts section and it was really cool. they had a little box where you could type your heading and it had font/clour/size all that stuff to choose from so you didnt have to know any html or whatever it is you need to know to make things pretty. then it had the space for your entry. i think thats a good idea. if the guy who's redesigning blogger is reading this, maybe he could take that idea on board??
theres a randy newman song that the whitlams cover called short people. it goes down very well live. the short people in the audience particularly enjoy it, even though it doesnt really say nice things about them.
its like that REM song, the one i love. people listen to the first line and think its beautiful and decide to use it for their bridal waltz, when the words say
'this one goes out to the one i love
this one goes out to the one i left behind
a simple prop to occupy my time'

unless they were actualy thinking about the significant others hiding in the wings, that song sint really the best to be playing a your wedding.
anyway, short people

Short People got no reason
Short People got no reason
Short People got no reason
To live

They got little hands
Little eyes
They walk around
Tellin' great big lies
They got little noses
And tiny little teeth
They wear platform shoes
On their nasty little feet

Well, I don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
`Round here

Short People are just the same
As you and I
(A Fool Such As I)
All men are brothers
Until the day they die
(It's A Wonderful World)

Short People got nobody
Short People got nobody
Short People got nobody
To love

They got little baby legs
That stand so low
You got to pick 'em up
Just to say hello
They got little cars
That go beep, beep, beep
They got little voices
Goin' peep, peep, peep
They got grubby little fingers
And dirty little minds
They're gonna get you every time
Well, I don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
Don't want no Short People
'Round here

Tuesday, December 10, 2002

sean made meandering all pretty...you should go look

thankyou sean :)
heeeheeeee, i've been quoted on wednesday's child :)

warning : those who dont care to know about vomit need not read this entry

it started on saturday. we had organised to get a nice photo done of the boys for christmas. we actually got up early and got everyone ready, and at the shopping centre with enough time to get some lunch beforehand. i should have known that since nothing was going wrong yet that something was bound to happen. usually we're late and i can just use that as our bad thing for the day, but anyway. we sat in the food court. i got a really yummy tomato and cheese toasted foccacia, personwhosnameimustnevermention got some japanese something, and x had a sprite. usually e would pick at all our food, but he kept shaking his head and saying no. he didnt seem grumpy or anything, just not hungry. then all of a sudden he spewed everywhere. nice. and of course, the one time i didnt bring a change of clothes for him...so personwhosnameimustnevermention went and bought him another set of clothes and e and i went to to the photo place to wait. he and x played nicely in the waiting room, and sat nicely on the chair and then e wriggled to get down and spewed all over the floor. we just went home. e spewed a few more times in the car and that was really gross, then he went to bed and slept for 3 and a half hours. personwhosnameimustnevermention and i got a lot of gardening done. we weeded the side garden and the buddah garden and covered them in red gum mulch. they look really cool now. minimalist and funky.
the boys stayed at personwhosnameimustnevermention's parents house on saturday night. they were fine, apparently except that xnader got a rash. he had a few spots on him when he left but we just thought he'd been bitten by something in the garden since he was, of course, naked.
on sunday we cleaned. we did every room and were just starting on ours when personwhosnameimustnevermentions mum and dad bought the boys home. i was happy with that. theboys rooms looked really good, and they were happy too which was a bonus. usually x cries and starts tearing into his room screaming that he likes his room messy. then personwhosnameimustnevermention left to see his friends band play. i got on the computer to check my email and x came and said that his tummy hurt. after a few suggestions of what to do, he decided that a cuddle would be the best thing. so he sat on my lap and spewed all over the computer and the floor. nice.
i cleaned that up and put him in the loungeroom where he spewed again on the lounge. i put him to bed and watched harry potter with e. it was cool. then personwhosnameimustnevermention came home a whole lot earlier than i expected and spewed etc all night. i was okish. just sicky feeling in my tummy and achey all over. i had a cough too which was making my head hurt more. in the morning i spewed. yuck. not nice. and the clean house? no more, im afraid. personwhosnameimustnevermention and i slept all day and the boys trashed the house.
im feeling heaps better today. im still coughing and have a headache, but im not as achey and i dont really feel sick. i ate almost two pieces of toast earlier, and they seem to be staying in my tummy, so we'll see how that goes.

Saturday, December 07, 2002

i went to my first rehearsal on wednesday night and everything went pretty well. i have to speak up, buti'm always being told that.
the eclipse was that night but it wasnt all that spectacular, not from where we were anyway. aparently in ceduna it was amazing, but all we got was some bright cloud and then some not so bright cloud, and since it was 7:30, cloudy and dark, it didnt seem like it was that much different to a normal 7:30 ish night.
i had a dream last night that i was in a play and i was like one of the can can dances in moulin rouge, and i was pretty happy with that, except that my director who was a stupid bitch, and i'm pretty sure was supposed to be my year 12 drama teacher, cast me as pantinello or something, who was this guy who was basically a clown. so i had to be both charcters, and i was mad because i'd have to switch costumes all the time, and change my makeup.
a better dream i had was about a group of us who were doing an eisteddfod kind of a thing, and i had a break so i decided to take a look around the building and i ran into karlie. she was alright. she did that same stupid smirk, but i didnt take it badly. we decided to go shopping in the city, which turned out to be sydney. we found heaps of cool clothes shops and then as karlie was looking at some art stuff, i saw tim rogers from you am i. so i followed after him and we got talking and he was saying how he hopes i enjoy the show tonight, and im embarrased cos i couldnt afford to go, and i was too shy to ask if he could put my name on the door.
so i tell him that he should come to adelaide and listen to a few local bands. and he starts naming bands like maple and hummel, and i started saying anatone and he finished it for me and said that he'd heard that they were really good. so, i told him that i had some anatone in my car, and that he should come and listen to it. so he did. and on the way, he was telling me about how this was his local fish shop and that was where he got his bread and all that sort of stuff. along the way we met up with sharyn and karlie and we all sat in my car and listened to the tape. karlie was driving though, i dont know why.
on another note that is directly related, last night you am i played and i wasnt there, because i had no money. how could i have missed it? if i hadnt have picked up the boys christmas presents, i could have gone. bah. well, theres always next time, i guess, but that'll be next winter, about the same time as the whitlams.....it's too long to wait :(

Thursday, December 05, 2002

The further my thoughts get from my brain the smaller they grow until they roll off my tounge and vanish in a puff of sound.
the girl next door

Wednesday, December 04, 2002


i have a confession to make...
i watched ally mcbeal last night and i actually liked it, i even thought calista flockhart was pretty.

i'm sorry

Tuesday, December 03, 2002

when i go outside and it's realy bright, i shut my left eye and i can see perfectly. i dont know why, i've always been like that.
thats all
ok, if it's the 3rd of december where you are right now, please visit luscious thoughts and wish the sexy miss holly a very happy 24th birthday. SEXY SEXY SEXY BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL YUMMY LICKABLE FUCKABLE SUCKABLE CUDDLABLE LOVEABLE KISSABLE miss holly :)
happy birthday my sexy friend :)

Monday, December 02, 2002

1.If you could build your house anywhere, where would it be? just, somewhere nice
2. What's your favorite article of clothing? i like pyjamas. and i have big jumpers that i have aquired from boys, i like them too
3. What's your favorite physical feature of the opposite sex? i like eyes, and i like backs and shoulders too
4. What's the latest cd that you bought? love is a four letter word soundtrack
5. Where's your favorite place to be? in bed
6. Where's your least favorite place to be? somewhere uncomfortable
7. What's your favorite place to be massaged? all over, and by someone who knows what they're doing
8. What's most important, strong in mind or strong in body? mind
9. What time do you wake in the morning? between 8 and 9
10. What's your favorite tv show? queer as folk, six feet under, life support, buffy, all saints
12. What's your favorite childhood memory? um
13. What makes you laugh? things i find funny
14. What makes you really angry? stupidity and nastyiness
15. If you could play any instrument, what would it be? cello, guitar, harp
16. Favorite restaurant/cafe/eatery? the chicken shop on beach road is probably where we go most often for takeaway
17. Scariest moment of your life? i dont generally get scared. i just freak out
18. If there was a movie made about you, what current/former Hollywood star would play you? me
19. Do you believe in an afterlife? maybe...not heaven, or a heavenly like religious place. but i think that when people die they can see and hear and feel whats going on to the people who love them
20. Favorite children's book? i liked golden books
21. What is your favorite season? Autumn
22. What is your least favorite household chore? most of them
23. If you could have a super power, what would it be? mind reading
24. If you have a tatoo, what is it? nope, i dont
25. Who was your first love and at what age? the first boy who loved me, as far as i know, was a boy called daniel stone. he used to bring me presents at school, like soaps and hankies and stuff. i used to think that he'd stolen them from his mum. that was in year 2. the first boy i really liked was luke cutting. he had spikey hair and glasses. i've always like geeks
26. The song you wish you had written? any song that makes me feel good
27. Do you prefer cats or dogs? dogs to play with and cats to cuddle
28. What's in the trunk of your car? a blanket and a thing that takes the wheel off of a car
29. From the people you e-mailed this to, who is the most likely to respond? i didnt email it to anyone
30. From the people you e-mailed this to, who is the least likely to respond? same answer
31. What is your favorite day? any day that nothing bad happens
32. Using only one word, describe yourself feh
33. Say one thing nice about the person who sent this to you. one thing nice to the person who sent this to you...oh, i am funny today

is there a band in the world that can make me smile as much as the whitlams do? well, yeah, theres you am i, but, the whitlams....mmmm
we got to the gov at about 7:30, in time to hear a few songs by the support band who i'm very pleased to say, we didnt have to see since we were going to the late show. we had some dinner. a yummy crumbed chicken thing stuffed with some tomato and cheesy stuff that was nice, and some baby potatoes and this reeeeeeeally nice caremalized onion and sundried tomato sauce. yummo.
we bumped into rikki and chantelle in the toilets and managed to lose them pretty easily cos we didnt want to share our boys.
we lined up and got a really good spot down the front just to the side of jak. while we were waiting for them to start we saw jak and terepai sitting around near the back room and sharyn kept bugging me to go over there. apparently im the better talker of the two of us. i just think i'm better at saying stupid things. so i went over there and jak smiled at me and gave me a kiss and a hug and said that he was thinking about us while he was playing the first show....that made me happy. terepai gave me a kiss and a hug too and we talked about yoga and how he likes it better than belly dancing, especially on his cereal. did i mention that he is the master at stupid comments that make you roll your eyes and groan? well, i have now. jak invited us out after the show, and that made me very pleased.
so i went back to our spot and when the guys walked on, we saw that we had a perfect position where we could see all of the guys perfectly, and the sound was good too. they seemed to be having a really good time, stuffing up and laughing about it and just playing rather than performing. they were all in really good moods. i love that. it totally changes a gig when you can tell that the band are pretending to be in good moods rather than just having fun. you am i are like that.
jak doesnt play charlie #2 so he jumped down the front with a group of girls and seemed to be in his element. and then when he got back up on stage and they started to play hamburgers, terepai, or jamiropai as he was known that night, decided that he'd rather do some filming than play drums, so jak jumped on the drums and did a really good job.
i'm still smiling.
the whitlams fucking rock
so afterwards, we were talking to them, and i asked terepai if he was coming out but he said that he was too tired, so i asked jak and he says, yeah! these two girls have invited me to come watch them kiss!. boys.
so we all went to the supermild again and had a really good time. and jak watched the girls kiss. like, about an inch away from their faces with a huge grin on his face. then when they stopped he looked at me with this, 'is that not the most amazing thing you've ever seen!' look on his face. i asked him to call terepai and get him to come out and when he said that he'd be too tired, i put my arm around sharyn and said, awwww. so jak put his arms around us and pushed us together with the same stupid grin on his face. im gonna say it again, boys!
well holly, they said they were coming back in winter so if you're here we'll have to put on a show for them :)

i hope everyone in thanksgiving land had a good day and ate lots of yummy food. i'm off to the police station now to pay my first installment of my fine, $13. yep, if they want my money, they're gonna have to wait for it