Sunday, December 02, 2012


so, i left the house. multiple times


Monday, November 19, 2012

it is my thinking that if i cant leave the house for a massage, there is something wrong

Saturday, November 17, 2012

spike is walking around adelaide tonight

i'll be in bed, with a sign on my door saying 'you're invited'

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

it gets harder and harder to stay awake

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Ate the muffins
Drank the Kilkenny cream
Chewed off all my nails
...I think that's pretty much all I did

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Please show some respect for your neighbours and control your dog.We were woken up at 6 am this morning (again) by the constant barking. If its not 6-630am its 10-11pm or 7am on the weekend!?!You’re surrounded by families, babies, elderly, terminally ill, mothers, students, kids etc all being woken at ungodly hours by you.My dog know that barking gets a slap on the nose which is why it doesn’t happen, you can also get shock collars which soon breaks the habit. Simply locking it out to bark the neighbourhood down is not acceptable especially at the times you do it.It is your responsibility to control. Please consider the quality of life for your neighbours as they would yours.Thank you,On behalf of everybody

well then

we typed up a letter and delivered it to every letterbox in the street

Dear Everybody, While we appreciate your concern in regards to the constant early morning barking of dogs, we believe you are mistaken in assuming it is solely the fault of (my address was here, im not that sharey that i'll give it to you ;) ). I actually got home at 6am this morning (Sunday) and our dogs were both fast asleep, not disrespecting anybody in the neighbourhood.We know we are surrounded by families, as we see them every day. We are one ourselves. Our family includes primary school students, a uni student, and people with mental and physical disabilities. When our dogs do bark, as all dogs occasionally do, they are told off by all members of the household. There has not been a case yet where they have had to be slapped to stop them barking, and we would never resort to putting a shock collar on our dogs as firstly, they are not ‘problem barkers’ and secondly, they are loved members of our family. They spend the majority of their time in the house with us. It is only when we are out of the house or asleep that we lock them outside. If you would like to discuss this further, please feel free to knock on our door and introduce yourself. We have tea and coffee and sometimes even homemade muffins. With kind regards, Carly and Nick
 PS: as this is being typed there are 2 dogs asleep on the floor next to me and a rather loud dog barking somewhere in the distance.

this letter took a few drafts. there were some things that just didnt make the cut

*thanks so much for your letter!!!
*my dogs look up at me, as if to say, 'who is that dog barking? its not us!' 
* come and say that to our face, jerkbags!
*go eat a dick
*go eat a bag of dicks
*you are some sort of jerk, right?

that night, a man from up the street came to our door with a bottle of champagne, congratulating us for our letter, welcoming us to the street, and telling us he hadnt heard kailey or russell bark, and was more annoyed by the kids next door crying constantly. FREE ALCOHOL FTW!

since then we've spoken to two families and had a note from one, saying they had no problem with our dogs, and that basically, we rule

except, now the dogs are barking.... i guess they feel they may as well get a few barks in since they're being blamed for it anyway

Monday, October 22, 2012

i received a letter

the basic gist of it was 'slap/electrocute your dog'

would you like to read it? and my response?

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, myofascial syndrome.
Three now

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Thursday, July 19, 2012

its alright. she came back

i feel numb

and now kailey has run away

i cant even walk outside to find her

she's gone, and its my fault

Monday, July 16, 2012

Oh. It's starting again. Better get buffy out

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

A lot* has been happening

A lot of it good, but a fair amount of it has been less than average.
New house is good. Big. Spacious. Closer to town (not that I go) and better for schools.
Dogs are wonderful. Both learning manners and awesomeness.
Seeing more of Clancy. She basically lives in the bedroom.
Kids are happy. They have their own space and independence and they're handling it pretty well. They're becoming little men. And I'm super proud of them.
Nick is great. He makes me smile and laugh everyday. And even though sometimes he's a complete moron and I want to punch him in his stupid head, I love him.
It'll be our one year anniversary on Thursday. We're going out to dinner hopefully. Probably just to the pub, and l'll probably end up getting a chicken parmi, but those are good things. No problems there.


So now we know why I feel so downright crap the majority of the time. I've been properly diagnosed with chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia. Google them too. Super fun happy times... I know that there's a camp of people who don't believe these things are real. 'you don't have chronic fatigue, you're just tired'. No, actually I have chronic fatigue. 'you don't have chronic fatigue, you're just fatigued no. I have chronic fatigue and it's fucking bullshit.
I am not in debilitating pain. Nope. Not screaming and writhing around. Not entirely dependent on drugs to get through the day. But I am in a constant amount of pain that never goes away. It is constant. Always there. Pain and tired, no matter how much rest I get. No matter how much I 'take it easy'. Just pain.
I hurt myself at work last year. Ulnar nerve entrapment in my arm and did something in my back so bad I couldn't breathe. There is a name for it, I just can't remember.
I've been seeing physios since February. Twice a week at least. I see two therapists for my arms, one for my back and one who helps for both, as well as my regular doctor.
I'm still working, parenting, and in this time my dog died, I moved house and had a car crash.
Last week, after two weeks of coughing, I went to the doctor who said its possible I have whooping cough. I probably don't. We'll find out tomorrow, but whatever this cold is, it's fucked.
My house is great, but nothing is put away, and when I try to put things away, I hurt so much i need to lay down for an hour.
My house is great, yet has no Internet access, and probably won't for years.
I have had enough
I want to stay in bed and watch my so called life. I want to run away. I want to have a baby so that I have something. I realise how stupid that sounds. And none of those things are going to happen, but I don't know the answer. I don't know the answer.

*on a side note, next pet I get is going to be called 'alot'. Google image it.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Monday, May 21, 2012

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

so, they gave the house to someone else.

oh... were you moving?

yeah, well, kind of

this house is too small. its fine for one. one plus 3. and even kind of fine for one plus three plus 2. but one plus three plus 2 plus one plus one... its just getting a bit too much.

i'll leave you to decipher that maths, or you can wait. the answers are coming

so, we found a house. as big as we need. close to the school that we need. affordablish, but really, we're going to have to pay more. we were accepted, and given a move in date. we said ' great! we'll call you on tuesday!', that weekend being easter. we called. they gave it to someone else

the problem was it was happening now. i dont know how to handle now. so far im coping my staying in bed. i know this is not the correct coping mechanism, but its the only one i have.

i need it to happen in about october, so i have time to settle before next year. now, with a now answer was too hard, and because of that we missed out. because its too hard.

i should have just said yes. 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

shouldnt make me feel better, but it does

scary calm

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

day 6: 5 pm. 
sitting at the shops in my car, hiding from my family

day 7 : something i wore
after i wore it, kailey wore it

day 8: window
view from where i sit and blog from. not very inspiring, possibly why my blogging isnt that great
day 9: red

 day 10: loud

just behind that tree there was a group of men yelling at each other. one of them repeatedly smacked himself in the face with his hands. 
 day 11: someone i spoke to today

day 12: fork

day 13: a sign

Sunday, March 04, 2012

day 4 : bedside

 post secret - not really a secret

Saturday, March 03, 2012

last night we had band practice

i got this

i also got a big lump of scone mix. me and miffy are gonna make scones.  they'll be available at the jade tonight. you should come

Friday, March 02, 2012