free............zing

im so cold i had to warm my hands half way through writing that.

well, yesterday was probably my perfect kind of day, really. i was woken at about 9 by personwhosnameimustnevermention and marc getting ready, then fell back asleep. woke up at 1, rang personwhosnameimustnevermention, went online, read blogs and checked emails, went back to bed. woke up at 4, spoke to personwhosnameimustnevermentions mum, went back to bed, woke up at 7:30, had some tea, cuddled my babies, put them to bed, watched criminal intent, went back to bed.

sleep, internet and phone calls. im so boring.

i think i caught up though. after last week i was pretty exhausted. the theatre asked us to do the show again next weekend because it was going so well. we decided to end with a bang and just leave it at that. after party was pretty good. i had 2 quick cowboys and a glass of father o'learys and ended up crashing on the couch listening to paul play guitar. he played mr bo jangles which was so unbelievably sweet. i told him i was so tired i couldnt even have sex with him he he tried. he said 'you must be tired'. i love paul. except that i remember for some reason telling him i hated him, then his girlfriend said she hated him too and asked me if i needed a lift home. we all found this hilarious and luaghed and laughed. aaah, drunk funny. theres nothing quite like it.

you may have read already about vicki and i in the bathroom. so many disgusting people who dont wash their hands. its no fun waiting in the dark to pounce on people if no one comes in.

now, a message to someone i met on friday night

i realise you saw equus friday night, and you would have heard the line 'what the eye does not see, the heart does not grieve after', but there is a difference between letting your son watch westerns on tv in secret, and having 2 kids by seperate girls and living with your wife and not telling the girl you're suposedly falling in love with. i knew there was something creepy about you when i met you but i tried to be nice for the sake of all involved. actually, what you've done is quite cuntish. im not pleased. yeah, you were honest and said you will probably cheat, but what you should have said was that you were actually cheating as you spoke. i hear you said you thought i didnt like you. perhaps you picked up on the fact that i thought you were creepy. i said i liked you, if you made her happy. which apparently you did for a little while, then you fucked it up. i really hope i dont see you ever again. i think it would be a good idea if you went away
love carly