dear eli,
when you were born, something happened. i didnt bond with you straight away. you laid in your little plastic trolley, not needing me, with the sun sprinkling over you to keep you warm. you rarely cried, and the one night you did the nurses came in without me asking and took you away.
you didnt need me
i would lay in my bed and stare at you. i would read bad trashy magazines and then feel terrible for not being in awe with you, and i would look over at you again to find you sleeping, or laying peacefully, looking around.
you didnt need me
then one day i was holding you and looking into your sweet little old man face and something happened. you were special and i knew that i needed you and wanted you and that you were here with me for a reason
today you are five years old and i cant believe i have been lucky enough to have someone like you in my life for five whole years. i feel like i should share your wonderfulness, your amazingness, your you
but when it comes down to it, you are my beautiful baby eli, and you are special, and you make me happy every single day
i love you, sweetheart, happy birthday
Beautiful.
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Beautiful.
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(It is possible I have posted this twice - I dunno what happened..sigh)