why are the bad things so attractive?

things going through my mind right now:

leave
go
go away
run
far far away
stop
end
its the end?
please?
enough
get in the car
go go go
go
go
go
drive
away
far away
hospital?
tell them
tell them the truth
tell them you dont want this anymore
escape
airplane
train
bus
car
walk
escape
bad
do something bad