i just spent 2 hours on the phone with an old friend. an ex boyfriend actually, and i cried. he was really good, didnt freak out, didnt make a fuss, just helped. i think ive been needing to cry for a while now cos i actually feel better.
we had a good talk about lots of things and hopefully he'll be able to help me with particular things in my past that are holding me back.

thanks phillip