the internet is mocking me

facebook suggests i 'reconnect with adam'
email i just received tells me to visit britain again
a time capsule photo gets sent to me every now and then. todays is from 2006

in a style that is very strange for me, i was awake last night at 3am. ho ho ho, carly, you are a funny one. actually though, instead of being awake and angry at being awake and trying to sleep, i was writing.
ive been trying to write this song for a bit over a week now. its been in bits and pieces on paper and phones all around my bed. last night it all came together

every trick in the book

Hold on tight, you're needed now.
Dont let go of me.
The cold hard light of day didnt chase those thoughts away.
In fact it set them free.
Now im trying hard to feel how im expected to feel.
Waking up to the disappointment of what is real.

I kept the message that you sent me.
Remembering, imagining, hoping yes and no.
Remember how i said that i dared you?
Tell me, i'll stop if you say so.

I dont know what it was that i was looking for, but it was comfort that i
found.
And now those constant thoughts have hit my head with such a
force, they're spinning me around.

And though i couldnt have you, i wanted you to want me.
Watch me from your side of the room.
And thats the way we played our little parts in this game,
as responsible adults its what we do.

Is it the start of a pattern, or just a strange coincidence
when our fingers reach out at the same time?

im going to attempt a little more tidying today. see how it goes

apparently i'm missed

yeah. i havent been blogging, i know. sorry. to be honest, i didnt think anyone read this anyway, and it was just a page i used to keep all the sites i like to look at on one place. but thank you, if you do check back some times, for thinking of me

melbourne was great.
























the end

no, not really, but the pictures pretty much cover it

as you can see, there was driving, sleeping, bike riding, hat wearing, grammar/spelling correction, dolls, more driving, and more sleeping, but in a little more detail -

it was a very long drive. 7 people in an 8 seater tarago. 7 peoples bags, instruments and sexual innuendo.... so it was fun :) plus we made mixed cds which were super great.

after driving all day, we went straight to the venue which was awesome. gertrudes brown couch. you should go there. and we played with some amazing bands

owls of the swamp, and the tequila mockingbirds

listen to them, see them if they play, become their friends, they're lovely. hopefully they'll be coming to adelaide for next years format festival, so you should definitely listen out for that. hopefully humble bee and cheer advisory council will play too, and it;ll be a like a big reunion, aaaw.

so, friday night involved playing, pizza and panadol, then sleep. and saturday was all about awesome breakfast and garage sales. places like northcote make me wish i lived in melbourne sometimes. but i'd always miss adelaide.

saturday afternoon, humble bee played at idgaff with charles baby. he's a very sweet person, pays wonderfully, and sings beautifully. you should check him out too. possibly at format.

so, we played to a handful of people, the majority of whom were my band, and then we went out for ethiopian food. hell yeah. tasty as. after that we ended up at the old bar, i think? to see more bands. i was told by two male members of my band that the beer garden was full of hot young things. i didnt look out there, so i cannot comment. i can say that the 'things' i saw, were all aged around 13 and must have had fake IDs. before we even walked in, i heard on of the funniest things from the trip

bouncer: this you?
girl: yeah, i cut my hair
bouncer: lost a bit of weight too!

i know! who knew dogs could talk?!?!

saturday night was also where the grammar/spelling correction occurred.

sunday was driving. driving driving driving. very slow driving at first, since the marathon made it so that it took an hour to cross the city, but we eventually made it

we stopped in a town, somewhere, for lunch, and discovered that everyone in our band has a secret idea to open a cafe/gig venue/ art gallery/ thing. cheer advisory cafe, here we come! we also stoppped for free tea and coffee where ben proclaimed 'fuck it! im buying the lesbian book'. another highlight, especially for the grandmas running the shop

sunday night, we were still driving, i picked up adam, came home, kissed my kids and fell asleep. mmmmmm, my own bed

the following weekend, the council played the adelaide cd launch. you can listen to the songs at teh myspace, and buy a cd from us for$5. $5! you'd be crazy not to. we played with the british robots and the honey pies who are spectacularly awesome and amazing and it was a really fun, wonderful night, for many reasons.i had good talks with lots of people i dont really talk to, other than 'hey, how're you doing', and the entire band received a marriage proposal. cant ask for more than that

we played at the exeter friday night. i drank two shandys. it was a good night

please listen to noah and the whale

what you have to remember, and i need to constantly remind myself of this, is that people are idiots.

im generally grumpy today, so i feel quite at home in this thread. my head hurts. apparently i have sinusitis and my face hurts. my neck/shoulders/back/arms/even my hands hurt. my computer wont burn any cds and i need them by friday, especially be next friday for the lucksmiths show which i am so nervous about because i cant sing and have clearly gotten myself into something that i cant do. i can feel a pimple coming where my nose joins on to my face, you know that part? and its hurts and it feels like its going to be huge which is just what i need when im gonna be standing in front of 400 people singing badly and looking fat. i want to sew, but i dont know how. i want to clean my house but i cbf. i want to be a good mum and spend time with my kids but all i want to do is lay down and read. im reading the bell jar. again. not the best book to be reading when feeling like this, i realise that, but that brings me back to my first point which is - people are idiots, myself included

my band is playing with the lucksmiths next week. this is both exciting and terrifying.

mount gambier

humble bee had their cd launch on friday night, and it was all round pretty awesome.

there were brownies, cds, pots of tea and people - how could it not have been awesome!







thank you so much to everyone who came along, and to the humble bee twee orchestra, the super happytime funshine band for making it even more special

sewing machine of awesome

recording

i know i shouldnt peek

and if this is a sign of what kind of mother i'm going to be in the future, i should start riding dog houses and wearing big long ears cos im snoopy

but it was so cute. a notebook with his code name (his name spelt backwards), first page titled 'lost pencils', second page 'found pencils', third page 'suspicions'. all pages are empty. im glad he hasnt lost any pencils

carly cant come to the phone at the moment as she is busy revelling in the fact that she can now sleep without coughing

please leave a message and she'll get back to you as soon as she can