a little clue as to how i am feeling

busy busy busy

so busy. lots of stuff been going on lately.

on the 17th i went to the best wedding i've ever been to. i used to work with a girl called renata when i worked at bunnings. she's great. when bunnings moved to the warehouse i quit to have x and everyone else moved over there. a new guy came to work there called brendan and the rest, as they say, is history.

so renata and brendan got married at the tantanoola cave gardens. it was so beautiful. brendans sons, harry and jye walked up the path with them and they all held hands as renata and brendan got married. the boys were asked if they were happy for their dad to marry renata, they said yes, so it happened. simple as that.
at the reception personwhosnameimustnevermention and i sat with chad, who i used to work with as well. it was cool to see him again. he's been in china for years now and we dont get to see him at all.

the drive to tantanoola takes about 5 hours. it was a nice drive. we ate bacon and egg rolls. they were ok. not as good as other ones ive had, but still nice.

on the 24th we went to tim and kelly's wedding. that was really pretty too but a bit too churchy for my liking. there was this massive eagle sculpture in the church. i reckon i would have been pretty scared if i had to come and sit in front of that every sunday as a kid.

the food was so nice at the reception. i was full, a fat happy little girl, but i kept eating cos it was yummy. the MC for the night used to play fatcat on tv years ago. that was pretty funny.

so this week i have rehearsals almost every night. it started on sunday, 3 till 9, then yesterday 10am till 11pm, tonight from 6 then our first performance on thursday night.
you'd all better come and see this. its pretty fucking spectacular if i do say so myself

*grumblegrumble FUCKING COMPUTER grumblegrumble*

ok, so the reason i havent been around much lately is because my computer has decided to shit itself once again and just stop working. not entirely. oh no, that would be too easy. it likes to work occasionally, giving me glimmers of hope that maybe, just maybe, that website will open today...come on...the address is right, you look like you're opening it...the address is even still in the address bar....but no, no thats not like you. you're the kind of computer who likes to get peoples hopes up. you leave it till the last possible second and then you open the comcast site, or the squarespace site, or a google search page, or maybe you'll just say to me, hey i dont care if you checked this blog this morning, im telling you now that it never ever existed!. give up, puny mortal, you are nothing but skin bone and muscle...and fat, and i am a machine!!!! you will never win! bwaaaaahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

please vote some more for liv or christina, theres a tie....thankyou

what is it?



behind these conveniently coloured splotches is kirsty's birthday present. i wonder what it could be......

happy birthday kirsty! show us your cups!

drowning in a sea of retarded sexuality and bad poetry

the real world is so goddamn ugly and everyone's always yelling at you or trying to feel you up.

watch me, im spanish

hola Jesús y gustaria, Gracias para visitar mi sitio. yo me puse lo entiende pero de nada tiempo, el amor coche

here we are

i'd just like to congratulate jeanene garofalo for leading the entire way through this little chicks poll i've been running for the past couple of weeks. good job. so here we are, the last 2. the beautiful liv and christina...vote away

Liv Tyler Vs Christina Ricci

not so yellow now



last night i got a new colouring book, a wooden doll, the new harry potter book and some new hair. all in all, a pretty satisfying night.

what is not so great is that im getting sucked into watching average joe. its all channel sevens fault. there just isnt anything else to watch while i wait up till 11:30....11:30 to watch angel. i really hope the guy that talks like baby bear is going to win, but i think it'll be that other guy that reminds me of someone. man am i good at descriptions. you all know who i mean anyway.

angel was good tho...flesh eating parasite, shudder. sounds a bit too much like camel spider to me. mmm, chocolate

so close...

someone else needs to vote. theres a tie again. oooh, this is so exciting

what the hell is going on with the den and den letters? did someone steal them? cso, they're just not there. disappeared. vanished. vamoosed. vamoosed, mehehe.

i forgot to say that dang called me last week. he wasnt drunk so there were no moosings, and i had to go get xans so we couldnt talk for long, but yay, he called.

also, hugs to jess. hang in there tiger.

mmmm, willow





You are outgoing Willow. You have really come into your
stride and are one with your surroundings. Everyone thinks you are super-cool,
but you're a bit worried that they'll figure out you're pretty normal.
But you have such potential and a great attitude that you simply don't
know your worth.



Wanna see which Willow you are? Take the test!

this week...

PISCES
You might want to re-establish something to the way it was but if other people are involved, this is probably not possible. You have to make a personal commitment. Letting things float so that the obvious eventually comes to the surface will not work. You can get left behind if you are not willing to make your own decisions

SCORPIO
Past health issues may emerge again. You might also be very conscious of not wanting to do things that might encourage certain end results. This cannot be a hit and miss affair. To gain a sense of wholesomeness you have to put your focus right at the centre and keep it there. Let things grow from this centre outwards

vote vote vote

Kate Winslet Vs Liv Tyler
Jeanene Garaffalo Vs Christina Ricci

....

there is a nemo fish from macdonalds laughing continuously and if someone doesnt find it and smash it soon, i will smash something else

now, where do i get one of these?



courtesy of glancy hq

hey...

can someone else please vote in my chicks poll. some scores are tied and i need someone not to be tied so i can ditch an even number, thanks

another borrowy idea

ok, so i 'borrowed' from someone elses blog again. whatever, im already over it. i continuously follow links from other people's blogs and somehow end up places ive never been, and i always forget the actual address, but seem to remember the round about way i got there. hmm, round about way, that doesnt sound at all like me :P
anyway, i found this on uptown girl (which i got to by visiting stone cold sober, leaving a comment, and reading uptown girls. i also visited drama queen by following links from uptown girl. see, i wasnt lying)

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. - - "why didnt you say so? i would have shouted at you for peeping, but i wouldnt have thrown ink at you..." the folk of the faraway tree, by enid blyton

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? - - my pretty calendar, ooh, two weddings to go to

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? - - playschool

4. WITHOUT LOOKING, can you guess what the time is? - - 9:47 am

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? - - 10.10 am, damn, if i was sposed to be going somewhere i'd be late

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? - - the shins, woohoo! and my boys playing nicely in their room, singing transformers to each other

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? - - um...does coming in from outside count? i came in from rehearsal last night at about quarter to eleven.

8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at? - - drama queen

9. What are you wearing? - - nothin

10. Did you dream last night? - - cant remember

11. When did you last laugh? - - early this morning, having a conversation with x. 'mum, its morning, you should get up' 'i cant open my eyes yet, its too bright' 'thats because you're nocturnal'

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? - - a clock, a detour sign, a big copper 'le', some photos, a phone, a concrete head and a fair bit of grime at 2 and 4 year old height.

13. Seen anything weird lately? - - nothing out of the ordinary

14. What do you think of this quiz? - - its actually not that bad really

15. What is the last film you saw? - - lilo and stitch

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? - -a bigger house with a housekeeper

17. Can you tell something about you that no one knows? - - i just remembered i didnt wash my hands after i came out of the toilet, brb

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? - - world peace. and along with that, everyone who'd ever done anything wrong by anyone else would apologise and mean it. money would be shared more evenly too

19. Do you like to dance? - - Yep

20. George Bush: is he a power-crazy nut case or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years? - - feh, FEH

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? - - this answer has changed so many times. at the moment the answer is scarlett

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? - - well, x :)

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? - - maybe for a little while, but i'd have to come back to adelaide

a dedicated post

in no way is this post supposed to sound mean...

some people...look, i know that some people have problems. hell, i am one of these so called, 'some', along with many MANY of my friends. It's just that sometimes, people use their problems as escapes and reasons, not as...I'm not sure how to explain it. the way i see it, your problems are sitting along there beside you. they may taint what you do and what you think, and although they are right next to you, so close that they're touching, so close that they're even part of you, they aren't all of you.

and sometimes, some of the people with these problems tend to wallow in them. let the problem grow to be taller than they are, and they use it as an umbrella so that anything that comes their way has to attempt to pass through the umbrella first. and if it does get through, its so stained with problem that they cant see or hear it in the way it was intended. imagine sending an email, typing 'want' instead of 'wont'. imagine how bad a simple spelling mistake could turn out to be, having been syphoned through the problem umbrella first.

things can be kinda scary.




Oh, the Places You'll Go
Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.

You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down the streets. Look em over with care.
About some you will say, 'I don't choose to go there.'
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too.

OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don't.
Because, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say so
but, sadly, it's true
that Bang-ups
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.

You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
YouÂ’ll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then
that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump,
you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're dark.
A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for the mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-neck pace
and grind on for miles across wierdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place...

...for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a Kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO!
That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.

With banners flip-flapping,
once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of guy!

Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. There are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes they won't.

I'm afraid that some times
you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win
'cause you'll play against you.

All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you'll be quite a lot.

And when you're alone there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go
though the weather is foul.
On you will go
though your enemies prowl.
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike.
And you know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.)

KID YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

i apologise

i should have found this earlier

woohoo! episode 6

six sounds like sex, heehee

episode 1
episode 2
episode 3
episode 4
episode 5

ok, here we go again

i think you'll actualy be really surprised at the results im getting. someone is winning by quite a bit

Kate Winslet Vs Thora Birch
Christina Ricci Vs Allyson hannigan
Liv Tyler Vs Lauren Ambrose
Jeanene Garaffalo Vs Anna Paquin

ok

i really need to add this link. i honestly cannot stop reading.

when i can be bothered i will add the links to the linky bits over there. iw ill also update darcies blog so i dont have to click wednesdays shild, and then the link from her old blog, to read her new one

proof

i think that no matter how hard we try, we are never going to be as good a mum as our own mums are. and that goes for house keeping as well as motherly things like looking after your own kids. here are some examples

leaving e sleeping while i take x to kindy
on the way home, thinking that stopping and picking up that stray labrador would be a good enough 'sorry for being a bad mummy' present
letting e eat chocolate cake for breakfast
me eating chocolate and telling e there was none left, then eating more when he walked out the room
deciding that a salt and vinegar chip sandwhich is a good enough breakfast for myself
thinking i should wipe e's face every time he walks past me, but never actually doing it

and all this is only in the last hour and a half

that one made a difference

Kate Winslet Vs Thora Birch
Christina Ricci Vs Audrey Hepburn
Liv Tyler Vs nicole kidman
Jeanene Garaffalo Vs Ashley Judd
Anna Paquin Vs Rose McGowan
Lauren Ambrose Vs Allyson hannigan

stupid ennetation

so apparently people can comment, i just cant read them. stupid enetation. do you think that if i say stupid enetation enough, the people from stupid enetation will come along and fix my problem for me? stupid enetation, probably not.

so because i cannot read my comments, hosted by stupid enetation, i cannot put the next lot of girls up for your votes. you'll just have to wait

stupid enetation

what the hell is this?

please explain

my first introduction to hip hop was via my first *real* boy friend, phillip. i cant even tell you the names of the groups he listened to, but what i can tell you is that i endured hours of it.

it all sucked.

ok, maybe not to phillip and his mates, but i gave that music a pretty good go, and it never won me over. i was 14/15 at the time and am now 26. since then, mainly in the last year or so, i've gotten into hip hop a little more. with bands like the hilltop hoods and a tribe is forming playing songs that are not only catchy, but good, i can see how hip hop can be popular.

what i cant see is how groups like 50 cent and r. kelly can be popular. do people even listen to the lyrics? we got a copy of rolling stone last week and it had an article on product placement in predominantly r&b and hip hop songs.

here are some examples

'all around the world on a microphone/leaving the booth smellin like burberry cologne' - missy elliot
'dont want to meet your daddy/just want you in my caddie' - outkast
'the way you do the things you do/reminds me of my lexus, cool/that why im all up in your grill' - r. kelly
'ma, you worry none, the minks come with the guns/prada, the gucci, its all in bird fun' - ginuwine
'when i pull up front, you see the benz on the dubs/when i roll 20 deep, its 20 knives in the club' - 50 cent

i vaguely understand portions of those lyrics...i honestly have no idea what bird fun is

go for it...

the next lot will be a lot smaller, i reckon

Kate Winslet Vs Jennifer Tilly
Thora Birch Vs Audrey Hepburn
Christina Ricci Vs natasha lyonne
Liv Tyler Vs Ally Sheedy
Jeanene Garaffalo Vs Winona Rider
Joey Lauren Adams Vs Laura Prepon
Eliza dushku Vs Anna Paquin
leelee sobieski Vs Sarah Kendall
Reese Witherspoon Vs nicole kidman
Lauren Ambrose Vs Dominique swain
Kirstin Dunst Vs Maggie Gyllenhaal
Christina applegate Vs Ashley Judd
Rose McGowan Vs Allyson hannigan

what happened on saturday night

on saturday night, i was feeling very sick. i went to work at the theatre anyway, and did a fine job, if i may say so myself. danni mullins grandpa is very nice and reminds me of bud tingwell. i'm sure her grandma is nice too. its just a shame about the rest of her family.

i was selling cds at onkaparinga youth star. yay to all the OPUSites that were in it. and yay to megan for winning, i voted for you.

i really wasnt feeling well at all, so i went straight home and straight to bed with a cup of tea.

at around 12:30 i was woken up by loud knocking/thumping on my front door. i didnt want to answer it. i was home alone. matt had gone to a bucks night and wasnt expected home for hours, if at all, and the kids were sleeping at my mums.

i waited.

the thumping started again. louder and longer.

i looked out the window and couldnt see a car. the front light was on but i couldnt see who was standing on the porch. i heard the screen door close and i went back to bed. until i heard the side gate rattling, daisy still barking after all this time. whoever it was was persistent and not put off by the barking.

i snuck into the kitchen and looked through the window.

there was a man in my back yard.

daisy was still barking, i saw the man bend down and then daisy stopped.

i went to call matt, but in the dark i couldnt see the numbers properly, and i figured that he wouldnt hear his phone over the noise at the pub anyway. so i did what i thought he would say to do, i called the police.

the lady was really nice. my voice was shaking from being scared and cold. she said she'd stay on the line until the police had come, but i needed to get dressed so i could open the door. as i walked down the hallway i kicked the lounge. i was hoping the man wouldnt hear the noise and come to the back door. i got dressed in the dark, incase he saw the light. i couldnt see him anymore, i didnt know where he was.

i got dressed, and stood by the front door. when i saw the car lights, i peeked out the window and saw that the police had arrived. the lady came to the door to see if i was ok, the man went to the gate, torch in hand, to investigate.

'theres a guy laying out the back on the ground, says he lives here'

i walked around the corner to see someone staggering around the backyard.

'name please?' said the police man

'matt johnson'

'this him?' said the policeman

'yes,' i growled

but thats not where it ends.

'matt johnson....you're not in a band are you?' asks the police man

matt tries to stand still and not wobble all over the place, 'yes he is', i answer.

'you dont know ross mcinnes do you?'

'...fucking hell....' says matt, head in hands

'im his brother in law, im married to his sister,' says the police man, 'you ok now?' he says to me.

'yes', i say, still growly at matt for making me so scared, and we go inside.

'i cant believe you called the police on me.....' begins the rather short conversation before he succumbs to his drunkenness and falls asleep, not before making me promise never to tell anyone what had happened.

in the morning, before he even gets out of bed, he calls marc and fills him in on everything. apparently the story was a lot funnier after sleeping all night.

okies, go your hardest

i mean, in a voting kind of way

Kate Winslet Vs Jennifer Tilly
Thora Birch Vs Rita Hayworth
Christina Ricci Vs Drew Barrymore
Liv Tyler Vs Ally Sheedy
Jeanene Garaffalo Vs Amy Wong (from Futurama, if she was real)
Winona Rider Vs Rose McGowan
Joey Lauren Adams Vs Laura Prepon
Eliza dushku Vs Anna Paquin
leelee sobieski Vs Sarah Kendall
Reese Witherspoon Vs nicole kidman
Scarlet johannsen Vs Dominique swain
Kirstin Dunst Vs Maggie Gyllenhaal
Christina applegate Vs Ashley Judd
Meg Ryan Vs Allyson hannigan
Clea Duvall Vs Lauren Ambrose
natasha lyonne Vs Audrey Hepburn

the next round of hot chicks will be up for voting soon, stay tuned

oh, i'll do a new comic soonish too