i realise i havent been blogging as much as i kind of promised myself and you that i would. i dont really have words for what is happpening at the moment. i do...for some things... but not that i can say out loud right now. as i said before, things are happening, and i will tell you about them, just not right now. these things are kind of scary, and have been taking over my brain for some time now. there aare a lot of things in there right now, and thats tricky because im spending more and more time in bed lately; and as much as that is very comfortable and relaxing, its not exactly the best use of my time.
these things are going to take working through and getting used to, and its only by doing them that i'll work it out.

this all sounds a bit too positive for my liking. i'll start tomorrow