i have an owie sicky tummy today. i'm very grumpy. i cant go to the city to pick up my you am i cd and free t shirt. marc and lyndell broke up cos marc thinks he might like someone else and lyndell is so upset. matt is mad at me for being mad at marc. im only mad because he's doing all this stuff like getting alices phone number in front of lyndell. if he doesnt love her anymore, than thats sad but thats the way it has to be. lyndell is devastated. she keeps crying and crying. the part that has hurt her the most is that all this time marc's been really over protective of her, getting mad when a guy even looks at her and she happens to look back. and now he's being pretty aloof about the whole thing. not giving any answers and leaving her waiting. thats why she broke up with him, cos she didnt think it was fair that she had to hang around and wait till marc made up his mind. i made her cookies. partly to cheer her up, partly to make her eat something cos she hasnt eaten since wednesday. she had half of one. poor girl. i'm gonna ring her later and see how she's going.
my tummy hurts :(

through dangers untold and hardships unumbered
i have fought my way here to the castle beyond the goblin city
to take back the child that you have stolen
for my will is as strong as yours
and my kingdom as great

you have no power over me

sarah - labyrinth

i'm going to attempt to make a new blog that just has quizzes in it. so i'm going to be taking all the quizzes out of here and putting them there, thus making this blog run faster, so , wahoo.

on another note, i'd just like to say, 'welcome home holly' i hope you and sean are having a nice fuck right now.

did i just say that? i am so naughty

there used to be a picture of david cassidy here with a 'which 70's teen idol are you?' quiz thingo, but the picture wouldnt come out right so out he goes. screw you david cassidy

david cassidy was on rove last week and he is probably, actually, yes, without a doubt, the scariest person i have seen in a long time. try and find a pic of him somewhere. he is really REALLY scary

sean is always on the phone

Take the "Which Mike Myers Are You Quiz" By Horsekateer

I was going to call you up tonight
ask you to come, walk a while at my side
talk with me, about nothing and everything
we could have told each other things
that the night would hold secret in it's wisdom
letting the darkness weave a spell over us
instead this distance is far too convenient
I miss knowing you, those little things
that that make you up, make me want you
you look like the picture on the front of the box
I would try to put you back together
but you're holding all the pieces



the girl next door [+]

it's like this girl says the things in my head that i cant find the words for

'yeeeeah, dont let it go to waste
i love it but i hate the taste
and you keep holding me down'

foo fighters

hmmmm

on another foo fighters note, i got an email through the punkarella list that said that the foo fighters played at this gig to raise awareness that HIV does not tlead to AIDS, that its the medicine that the doctors give you that gives you AIDS. what the? apparently the bass player, i think, could be guitarist, but anyway, he found out about it and deicided they should play this gig. there were flyers being handed out and everything. i dont know about that. for a band that big to play at something like that has got to be a little scary, dont you think?
good news for today though is that they played an unreleased nirvana song on the radio this morning. the radio station stole it off the internet. matt called me and said, just grab a tape and record it. so thats what i did, and then when it was finished i played the tape to see what i taped over and it was matts old band anakin. they were so bad. chad came over the other day, he was the guitarist for anakin, and he says, 'when ross gets back we should have an anakin reunion and play some gigs'. yeah, or not.
sean and holly got bit parts in the new view askew movie jersey girl. how cool is that! i wish matt and i did too, but i know we're too far away. hee hee, thats so cool.
matt caught a mouse in our new humane mousetrap last night. xander was awake this morning when he found it. he was originally going to drop it off at lonsdale somewhere on his way to work, but xander wanted to see it so i think he just let it go up the road which means, of course, that it'll be back. i asked xander about it afterwards and he said that the mouse cried when it got let out and that it had to run really fast cos it was raining.
he also said something the other day which made me think he was like, some amazingly gifted child. he was eating a green iceblock, and he said to me, 'green tastes like wind'. and ithought, thats beautiful, you are so clever. that is until this morning when he has an orange iceblock and tells me that orange tastes like wind. maybe its a different kind of wind, i dont know.

could my life possibly get any worse?
mum came over this morning so that i could go over to colonnades andhave some 'me' time. in that me time i needed to put some films in to be developed, buy bread and butter, go to the bank and pay my rego which was due on the 16th.
as i pulled into colonnades carpark, a policeman called me over and told me i was driving an unregistered vehicle, and it didnt matter that i had my rego papers in my hand, proving that i was going to pay for it right then, the fact was that i was breaking the law and was to be given a fine and a summons for a court appearance. 'its not my fault you cant prioritise your life' fuck you pig, my priorities lie with my kids and my family, feeding them and making sure they're warm and safe is my priority. if i could afford to pay my rego, i would have. if i could afford to take a taxi to the bank and to motor registration, i would have. but the thing is, i couldnt and i was paying it the first chance i could. he had the authority to give me a warning and let me off since it's my first offence, but no, he had to do the whole thing and be an arsehole about it. fuck head.
i was crying the whole time. i went to see mary but she wasnt there. another lady spoke to me and she said she'd drive me to motor rego cos i wasnt allowed to drive my car there, then she drove me back to colonnades to get my car. i felt so bad for her haviong to do that. i know its her job to councel people but im not her client. i dont know how many times i apologised to her.
then i got home, still crying, kept crying till mum left, cos she had to go to work and couldnt stay. then i rang matt to tell him what happened and he said, 'dont worry, get over it, its nothing'. and i know in the whole scheme of things it is nothing but its not nothing to me. im feeling bad enough as it is at the moment, i dont need this

sonya from MAPS emailed me and told me about a movie that her friend is making. it's a 1950's detective movie so if i get a part that should be really cool. i've emailed him my resume and photos...i guess he'll get back to me when he sees it.
matt wasnt too keen on me doing it. when i told him instead of being excited like he normally is he said, 'do you want to talk about it now or later'. that pissed me off. a lot of things have been pissing me off lately, and a lot of them are to do with matt. i took eli to the doctor earlier. i knew nothing was wrong with him but i just wanted to make sure there wasnt a real medical reason why he isnt sleeping or able to exist without screaming. and i was right, theres nothing wrong. i really just wanted to get out of the house. he fell asleep in the car on the way back so i went to mums for a couple of hours and just yelled and yelled about matt. i felt better i guess. i wrote out a wishlist from the avon catalouge of new makeup and perfume stuff that i might like if mum was feeling generous and wanted to give me something that might cheer me up for a second or two.
when i got home matt was very sweet to me. he didnt act mad that i had been out for so long. he just asked how eli was and showed me the photos he'd put up. he also made me some cup of teas and played with my hair a bit. maybe it's guilt? maybe he's just trying to be nice? maybe it's nothing at all and i'm just looking for reasons? i dont know.
i told mum how i wanted to move back there for a while maybe. she didnt say no. she just said maybe matt and i should have more of a talk about it tonight.
i said to her, and mary when she rang today that i'd rather leave temporarily now and work things out than leave for good later on bad terms.

oh yeah, i forgot to tell you. matt cought a mouse in the lounge room last night. he set a trap for them near the heater cos thats where they're getting in. i thought i'd hear it snap but i didnt. eli was up all night so we were up and down all night too. matt went and checked the trap as i was getting up to go to the toilet. i heard the plastic in the bin crackling and i knew he'd cought one. he said he'd gotten rid of it. i like mice. im not scared of them or anything. i just dont fancy seeing a stiff dead one on my floor or in my bin. so what do you think happens? i get up this morning and walk into the kitchen and the sunlight shining through the window highlights the outline of a very stiff, very dead mouse laying in the bin. matt thought it was funny but apologised.
yeah, real funny, i thought.poor mousies. i know i know, they cant live in the house with us, but i hate killing them. the one matt got last night could have had babies :(

i checked my email this morning and theres a message from sms.ac. someone sent matt a kiss :) her name is tanya doyl. she's 22 and lives in gunnison, UT. you can look at her here. the thing is that when i looked her up, i couldnt find her. i did a search for her, thinking i could send a kiss back to her because sending an email costs 10 credits and matt only has 5. but she's nowhere to be seen. matt reckons they've set it up so people buy credits. i'm thinking he's probably right.
even so i wouldnt mind some guy sending me a kiss. he has to be hot though....maybe he could look like orlando bloom :) *giggles and giggles at sean and blows him kisses, aaaaaaw :)*

my tummy is growling at me
i'm pretty sure its saying 'no more bread! eat some fruit!'
fruit is cold and it hurts my teeth
bread is soft and comforting

this is from the punkarella mailing list that i am on. we've been discussing the vines/the strokes and either a) how much they are try hard posers b) how much they rock c) how much we dont care about them or d) can we please shut up about the strokes and the vines and talk about you am i, the new cd comes out in a week or so goddammit!!!!!!. can you guess which one i'm going with?

anyway, i just liked this comment...made me giggle

But I think all slightly rock'n'roll image conscious
young men should be grateful that The Strokes have awakened little
girls to the dirty side of music again, even if it is a pasteurised
version of the dirty side.

dirty music. that reminds me of the rocky horror picture show.
ta ta ta ta ta ta touch me
i wanna get diiiirty

dammit janet, you sexy thang

sensible or stupid


I think I could like you
but that would mean to put aside my inhibitions
however wise or foolish they may be
and to lose control just isn't my style
damn this being sensible
it's interfered with my ability to be human
I want you to make me fall
but I don't want to be at the mercy of your smile
a mistake I never minded making
or will I wish I hadn't ever had the choice
it's not your fault whatever happens
another round won by caution and lost to life
the girl next door 4:51 PM

i really like what this girl writes