ive just discovered i have heaps of posts in my drafts folder.  over the next few days i'll be posting these, as i left them, from oldest to newest

this is the first

4/3/2005


100 QUESTIONS

HAVE YOU EVER...
1. Kissed your cousin: nope
2. Ran away: yep
3. Pictured your crush naked: yep
4. Skipped school: yep
5. Broken someone's heart: yep
6. Been in love: yep
7. Cried when someone died: yep
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yep
9. Broken a bone: nope
10. Done something embarrassing: yep
11. Lied: yep
12. Cried in school: yep
WHICH IS [BETTER]...
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite? whatever
15. Girls or Guys: depends for what
16. Flowers or Candy: flowers
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: either
18. Blondes or brunettes: brunettes
19. bitchy or slutty: neither
20. Tall or Short: whatever
21: Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day:night
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
23. What do you notice first?
24. Like Being Spanked:
25. Worst Question For Her/Him to ask:
26. Showered:
27. Stepped outside:
28. Had Sex:
ABOUT YOU...
29. Ever been Engaged/ Married:
30. Your Good luck charm:
31. Person You Hate Most:
32. Best Thing That Has Happened:
33. Where did it go?:
34. Picture on your desktop:
36. Movie:
37. Artist or band:
38. Cars:
39. Ice Cream:
41. Food:
42. Makes You Laugh The Most:
43. Makes You Smile:
44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What:
45. Has A Crush On You:
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone:
47. Who Has It Easier?:
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them:
49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: I
50. Save AIM Conversations:
51. Save E-mails:
52. Forwarded Secret E-mails:
53. Wish You Were Someone Else:
54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex:
55. Wear after shave:
57. Cuddle:
58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time:
59. Fallen For Your Best Friend?:
60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?:
61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?:
62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day?
63. Been Rejected?:
64. Been In Love?:
65. Been In Lust?:
66. Used Someone?:
67. Been Used?:
68. Dumped Someone?:
69. Been Cheated On?:
70. Back Doored It?:
71. Done Something You Regret?:
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. Hung out with?:
73. You Talked To?:
74. You Hugged?:
75. You Instant Messaged?:
76. You Kissed?:
77. You Yelled At?:
78. You Dreamed About?:
79. Who Text Messaged You?:
80. Who Broke Your Heart?:
81. Who Told You They Loved You?:
82. Color Your Hair?
Body
83. Have Tattoos?
84. Have Piercings?:
85. Boyfriend/girlfriend?:
86. Own A Webcam?:
88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?:
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?:
90. Habla espanol?:
91. Buy Designer Clothes/Shoes:
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
92. Stolen Anything?:
93. Smoke?:
94. Schizophrenic?:
95. Obsessive?:
96. Compulsive?:
97. Obsessive compulsive?:
98. Panic?:
99. Anxiety?:
100. Stressed?:

what i believe today

• that outside was dangerous, and could quite possibly kill me
• if outside didnt kill me, when i am driving in my car i will be attacked by the worms that, as of friday morning,  now reside in there
• the safest thing to do today would be to stay in my room with my dog
• i will do one, two, or all of these things : cry, vomit, sleep

what is actually true

• i doubt very much that outside will kill me
• ginger beer is not gross
• there arent actually any worms in my car
• i will do one, two, or all of these things: cry, vomit, sleep

where i am in my head is somewhere between those two lists. i am in bed. i didnt go to work because outside was too scary. i dont know what is scary about it. i have just returned from taking 4 steps out of my back door, and i didnt die, nor was there any inkling of something heinous approaching.
although, while out there i asked my boyfriend to marry me one day. he said 'maybe one day, actually, i take that back'.

probably an intelligent, sensible answer. i did hallucinate worms in my car on friday morning and almost run off the road. i also hung my dress on a coat hanger the other day, before tossing it onto the pile of clothes that is devouring my floor space.

kailey slept with me. i slept. i managed not to vomit or cry. i woke up to find nick had been to the shops and brought me in a trolley of tea and chocolate.

all things know

so, if you're friends with me on facebook, you'll already know, but

I TOTALLY SANG WITH DARREN HANLON!!!!!

he'd put a call out on his facebook saying that he needed someone to sing with him at his adelaide show, so i emailed, and then..... he called me

hi, is that carly?
yes?
hi, its darren
*insert me FREAKING OUT AND GIGGLING*

and then that up there happened, and it was super awesome, hope you like it :)

its ok

quiet again. i know. im sorry.
but this time its not a bad thing

i think im happy

a few months ago i was driving around and i felt weird, like i couldnt put my finger on what i was feeling. i worked out it was because i was content. i wasnt bothered. i wasnt worried. i was happy

yep yep

you should all be reading this, really best most informative website on the planet

hi nanna
xxxx

post secret

what have you been up to?

oh, you know, nothing much.... just hanging out with nick earls

well well well, what do we have here?

humble bee is pretty much done. cheer advisory council is mainly ben now. mountbatten is going swimmingly but is possibly being overshadowed by wild oats/cesare.

but you know what?

never fear

cat party is here